Bellamy Blake (
to_survive) wrote2016-05-28 05:22 pm
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[For Clarke & Raven]
It's been a change having Raven around, but a good one. There are moments with her that brings life on the ground rushing back, the good and the bad, but Bellamy accepts it all. He can't say that life was always good, but they tried their best and he wants to remember the little, good things more than the bigger memories that haunt him at night.
Raven, also, breaks up the routines he and Clarke have built up without realizing it. He gets food for three more often than not now, adds some of their older favorites to his search for weird and crazy food for Raven to try out.
Octavia's presence (or lack of it) is a black hole at his side, but Bellamy finds he can ignore it a bit more easily when the three of them are together as they were the night before, simply hanging out until late in the night. And then it's Clarke by his side in their bed and the world falls away.
Until the morning, when the few too many beers he had makes him regret everything.
He shuffles into the kitchen quietly, mindful of Raven still asleep on their couch and Clarke in bed. He tries to keep the noise down as he cooks the most basic of things he's learned -- eggs, bacon, some toast. A small breakfast, but it smells good and will soon be helping with his hangover, which is all Bellamy really cares about at the moment.
Raven, also, breaks up the routines he and Clarke have built up without realizing it. He gets food for three more often than not now, adds some of their older favorites to his search for weird and crazy food for Raven to try out.
Octavia's presence (or lack of it) is a black hole at his side, but Bellamy finds he can ignore it a bit more easily when the three of them are together as they were the night before, simply hanging out until late in the night. And then it's Clarke by his side in their bed and the world falls away.
Until the morning, when the few too many beers he had makes him regret everything.
He shuffles into the kitchen quietly, mindful of Raven still asleep on their couch and Clarke in bed. He tries to keep the noise down as he cooks the most basic of things he's learned -- eggs, bacon, some toast. A small breakfast, but it smells good and will soon be helping with his hangover, which is all Bellamy really cares about at the moment.
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She has the quilt from their bed wrapped around her like a cloak as the smell of food pulls her from bed. Bleary-eyed and bedheaded, Clarke throws a careful glance at Raven on the couch, smiling sleepily as she's pleased to see her friend still there. Once she reaches the kitchen, she slides up behind Bellamy and places her head against his back before holding out a demanding hand.
"Bacon me, please."
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All of which means she's not really prepared for the hangover that Raven wakes up with. Clarke and Bellamy's couch is more comfortable than she expected, and she burrows into the covers like she can hide from the morning for another few minutes before she sees Clarke and Bellamy in the kitchen.
"Hey, lovebirds," she calls out, tempted to throw a pillow at them. "Don't eat all the bacon without me."
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When he hears Raven's voice, Bellamy perks up and tilts his head toward the living room. "What is this? I'm doing something nice for us and all I get are demands from you two."
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"We won't," she calls back, chomping down on another bite. Bacon dangling from her mouth she reaches around to grab a few cooled pieces and shuffles out of the kitchen. Entering the living room, she holds out the bacon in offering to Raven. "Besides, I think we can convince him to make us more." Pausing she raises her voice to make certain he hears us. "Because he's so nice like that."
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"I knew I liked you," she says, taking the piece and crunching it happily. There's still a level of adjustment required for this kind of relaxed domesticity - she keeps waiting for it all to be shattered, to wake up and be in Mount Weather under a drill. Still, if this is some crazy dream she's going to ride it out as long as it will let her, so she shakes the thought away.
"I didn't know you could cook, Blake," she calls back to the kitchen, finishing the rest of her bacon. "Hidden depths, this one," she mutters to Clarke conspiratorially.
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"I am nice," he calls back in response, leaving the stove for a moment so he can turn around and shuffle toward the doorway to glare at the pair of them on the couch. "It's nice of you two to acknowledge my skills."
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Having a few of her favorite people nearby has made this place feel a bit more real. She's missed Raven, but hadn't let herself cling to the hope that anyone else besides Bellamy would show up. This is wonderful.
She reaches out of her blanket cloak to scratch at her cheek. "Is it just bacon or has your niceness extended to other breakfast foods? How else can I bribe you?"
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"Eggs, eggs are good," she calls out, leaning over the arm of the couch to find where she'd taken her brace off the night before. She pushes her blanket aside for a moment so that she can start to strap it back on. If nothing else she'll need it for when they annoy Bellamy too much and she needs to run away from projectile bacon rashers.
"Coffee is also a thing that we should have right now," she determines, but she can't ask Bellamy to do all the work, so she forces herself to stand once her leg is strapped in. "Three?"
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"I was going to make eggs anyway," he tells them, trying and failing miserably to give Clarke a pointed look. He doesn't quite grin at her like an idiot, but it's a near thing. "We can talk about bribery later."
He's at least trying not to be entirely disgusting around Raven.
"Come on, Reyes," he tells her, turning back into the kitchen. Bellamy points at the coffee maker, where he's left out the coffee but didn't get around to making something. (Actual, real coffee, even a year later, is still amazing.) "Get to work."
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"Yes to coffee, please." She pauses scratching at her knee under her blanket as she watches Raven follow Bellamy. It's only then that she notices something strange about her friend's back. "Raven, I think there's something on your back."
Casting a look at Bellamy to ask for assistance, she notices something on his as well. "Wait, yours too Bellamy. How much did we drink last night?"
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"What do you mean?" she asks, frowning. "We didn't drink that much." Enough for a slight hangover maybe but not nearly enough for Clarke to be seeing things.
"If either of you went to town with a marker while I was asleep..." she starts to teasingly threaten, but then Bellamy turns and she gets a look at his back properly. "Oh," she says, her tone falling. "Shit."
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"What?" he asks, turning as he shuts the fridge door, carton of eggs in hand. With his free hand, he tugs at his shirt by the shoulder, as though that will do much good. "What is it?"
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Biting her lip, she frowns at the words as she gets closer. A pit forms in her stomach, guilt washing over her as she reaches out to run her hand over Bellamy's back. "It's words." Turning slightly, she moves to look at Raven's back as well. "You both have words on your back."
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She places the mugs back down on the counter heavily and makes a beeline for the bathroom, dragging her leg faster than it can keep up. Once she's in front of a mirror, Raven turns, craning her neck around so that she can see, knowing she'll regret it even as she does.
For a moment she almost laughs at the absurdity of it, but then the meaning falls heavy in her stomach. OPPENHEIMER, it says, and Raven sees the dropship explosion flash before her eyes, sees the burned bodies of hundreds of Grounders, her friends mingled among them. She sees the explosion on the bridge, of the turbines in Mount Weather. Raven can make a bomb about of almost anything she touches, and on the Ground it had been easy to pretend like it was necessary. It was them or us, she tells herself, but the name is staring her in the face like a sick joke.
"I am become death," she says to the mirror, the words sticking in her throat.
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"What does it say?" he asks. If Raven's word is anything to go by, he has some idea of what it will say, but he wants to hear it.
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Worry creases her forehead, heartbreak plain on her face as she reaches out to touch the writing on Bellamy's back. "Murderer." Clarke's voice is soft, almost gentle as she breaks it to him.
It isn't fair that two of her favorite people should be called out like that. Pulling her hair over her shoulder she turns her back to Bellamy. "Do I..." she pauses, strengthening her voice. "Do I have anything?"